on the last day of the nascent world, rather long time after that, last night before Adam and Eve got expelled from the garden of Eden, they felt ashamed of their nakedness, they felt dejected, aggrieved of their fate, their mortality.
they felt ashamed of their curiosity to reveal what they must hide, the sin they must commit if only to fulfil their destiny...
It was a uncharacteristic/sad night in the Eden or so they felt .. the devil smiled on them that night and carved out a home for them, a scar on the full moon.
Saturday, March 21, 2009
on the last day of the nascent world
On the last day, the God rested for it was sunday and he had created man as master of all things alive and inanimate...Adam and eve lived in the garden ,naked and they had no shame.. it's after eating the forbidden fruit they came to realise their nakedness... Eve was cursed with pain and suffering for all the times to come as also with the responsibility for giving birth to the human child...
random strands from the famous story.. i just wonder why He took this much trouble when God could just rest happilty, watch cricket played by Angels,(or Demons or a match between two teams), have his wine, have his fairies.. All he needed to do was to simply write a book and ask someone to read the story and add to it all the complications and wars and loves stories.. it would all have been a big fat epic that might have surved the purpose..
But then like Tolstoy said once-God sees the truth,but he waits..
random strands from the famous story.. i just wonder why He took this much trouble when God could just rest happilty, watch cricket played by Angels,(or Demons or a match between two teams), have his wine, have his fairies.. All he needed to do was to simply write a book and ask someone to read the story and add to it all the complications and wars and loves stories.. it would all have been a big fat epic that might have surved the purpose..
But then like Tolstoy said once-God sees the truth,but he waits..
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
being creative
main doon bhi to kya doon tujhe ay shokh nazaron
Le de ke mere paas kuchh ansoon hain kuch aahein..
I am not very sentimental type, or so i like to believe..at least no one has accused me of being one..people have often told me about the firm icy handshake they get instead of the eulogised warm and firm one..yes i have been selfish, narcissistic since when i can recollect..I have my reasons, I have so many stories to tell, so many reasons to put forth, and i know- no one is interested in that, just as i am not in the least interested in learning the crib stories of others and myself by extension..i live in a glass (Palace?) with magnificent cold, hard walls, ornate lighting, trophies and souvenirs hanging on the walls, staring all the time with their brilliantly dead eyes, listening to every movement however slight, relishing the dreams where the history turned the other way round.. each of my trophies is magnificent, a never-to-be seen-again dream killed and frozen and preserved, my trophies are tributaries that feed the great river and the sand and trees and the oasis. I have other tributaries as well, but let's get back to the couplet before i get carried away..I decided to write this, this very night because there is a grave danger that i never will otherwise.
Living in a glass palace is difficult, once in a while you long for the soft mud Walls where you could scratch your and you lover's name, where you might try and wash it away with your tears once she's gone. ( yes that gives you a clue about my gender).
Once in a while you get scared of your trophies as you see these looking increasingly like each other and yourself. ( interestingly, in glass palace you don't have mirrors, or have mirrors that lie except when you want them to, so that you do not have to pursue the snow-white of your kid stories and kill her. the snow-white to be put in another glass coffin so that a prince might see her again and...mirrors in the glass palace do not like their stories to end, there is no khattam-sud a mirror can accept.) The palace,as indeed the river exist in the realm of half truth..
In my book of learning i add another bullet- Do not believe or disbelieve anything you see in glass place, ( or from it by extension). it's this disbelief that keeps you alive in the realm..
Someone knocks on the door, wants to come in, i welcome the guest, knowing he (or she) never came in, ask them to sit, have a breath, have little coffee. we start talking and tell each other stories, we admire and judge each other ,and then i murder them and put them on my walls before i usher them out with my warm smile and handshake..
the blood washed out from our severed heads keeps the river beautifully red even though i suspect sometimes if the river even exists..just as the guests never did. no certainly the river is just a fanciful idea, merely a trick to keep my glass palace clean off all the blood spilt..
I recollected this couplet just as something unusual happened- a guest came looking for me.. she remembered my face, could still believe it was the one on my body and not among those hanging on wall.. I remembered severing her head after we were done with our stories.after we had played our little games... but doesn't that mean she couldn't have come back? or this one the Scheherazade who didn't finish hers?
The guest wants a cup of coffee and the end of story i started last time. i suddenly discover i have no more stories to tell...the walls begin to blur and turn opaque as i ask her to finish hers..
Le de ke mere paas kuchh ansoon hain kuch aahein..
I am not very sentimental type, or so i like to believe..at least no one has accused me of being one..people have often told me about the firm icy handshake they get instead of the eulogised warm and firm one..yes i have been selfish, narcissistic since when i can recollect..I have my reasons, I have so many stories to tell, so many reasons to put forth, and i know- no one is interested in that, just as i am not in the least interested in learning the crib stories of others and myself by extension..i live in a glass (Palace?) with magnificent cold, hard walls, ornate lighting, trophies and souvenirs hanging on the walls, staring all the time with their brilliantly dead eyes, listening to every movement however slight, relishing the dreams where the history turned the other way round.. each of my trophies is magnificent, a never-to-be seen-again dream killed and frozen and preserved, my trophies are tributaries that feed the great river and the sand and trees and the oasis. I have other tributaries as well, but let's get back to the couplet before i get carried away..I decided to write this, this very night because there is a grave danger that i never will otherwise.
Living in a glass palace is difficult, once in a while you long for the soft mud Walls where you could scratch your and you lover's name, where you might try and wash it away with your tears once she's gone. ( yes that gives you a clue about my gender).
Once in a while you get scared of your trophies as you see these looking increasingly like each other and yourself. ( interestingly, in glass palace you don't have mirrors, or have mirrors that lie except when you want them to, so that you do not have to pursue the snow-white of your kid stories and kill her. the snow-white to be put in another glass coffin so that a prince might see her again and...mirrors in the glass palace do not like their stories to end, there is no khattam-sud a mirror can accept.) The palace,as indeed the river exist in the realm of half truth..
In my book of learning i add another bullet- Do not believe or disbelieve anything you see in glass place, ( or from it by extension). it's this disbelief that keeps you alive in the realm..
Someone knocks on the door, wants to come in, i welcome the guest, knowing he (or she) never came in, ask them to sit, have a breath, have little coffee. we start talking and tell each other stories, we admire and judge each other ,and then i murder them and put them on my walls before i usher them out with my warm smile and handshake..
the blood washed out from our severed heads keeps the river beautifully red even though i suspect sometimes if the river even exists..just as the guests never did. no certainly the river is just a fanciful idea, merely a trick to keep my glass palace clean off all the blood spilt..
I recollected this couplet just as something unusual happened- a guest came looking for me.. she remembered my face, could still believe it was the one on my body and not among those hanging on wall.. I remembered severing her head after we were done with our stories.after we had played our little games... but doesn't that mean she couldn't have come back? or this one the Scheherazade who didn't finish hers?
The guest wants a cup of coffee and the end of story i started last time. i suddenly discover i have no more stories to tell...the walls begin to blur and turn opaque as i ask her to finish hers..
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